Megan Febuary
Watching My Daughter Writhe in Pain

I will be my daughter’s curse. I will watch her as my mother watched me

Watching My Daughter Writhe in Pain
Megan Febuary
They Told Me Good Girls Don't Live

They told me God was an angry old man who would rather have me dead than happy. They told me I needed to count my blessings, but to keep in mind that I didn’t deserve them. They told me to keep my head down, cover up, don’t laugh so loud, let the boys talk.

They Told Me Good Girls Don't Live
Megan Febuary
We Shouldn't Be Ashamed to Talk About Vulvar ...

My name is Pam, I'm from Mexico City and I suffer from Vulvodynia. If you don’t know what it is don’t worry, most people don’t. But, if you want to learn about something that affects 6 million women’s lives in the US alone, you should keep reading.

We Shouldn't Be Ashamed to Talk About Vulvar Pain
Megan Febuary
Say My Name

And when my voice became the most unsafe and volatile part of me, I didn’t know whether or not it was going to work, and so every syllable felt like a risk.

Say My Name

“You are a Survivor, My Darling:” The messiness of Healing after Sexual Abuse

“You are a Survivor, My Darling:” The messiness of Healing after Sexual Abuse

I’ve never had a chance to experience what “healthy” is. I’ve been adapting and then re-adapting again and again to external trauma for my whole life until I’m like this knotted up old tree. The hardest thing for assault survivors like me is making the decision everyday – on a daily fucking basis – to strive towards healthy sexuality.

Same Time Next Week

Same Time Next Week

Every week, without fail, her therapist would ask her the same questions, and again without fail, Emilia would sit there and avoid taking any actual steps towards a resolution. Not that she didn't want to get better, but the fear she had when she approached those memories, those feelings, was just too much. She preferred the isolation of separating herself from that which made her human. 

How Many Licks Does it Take to Get to 100 Calories?

How Many Licks Does it Take to Get to 100 Calories?

I am 21. Impulsive, reckless, young, and the epitome of self sabotage. People often tell me, “You don’t know. You have no clue what the real world is like yet.” Maybe they’re right. Maybe I don’t, but I definitely know enough. All I have ever needed to know. I know this world wants to see me wither away, the embers of my soul burned to ash, into nothingness, just like me.