When A Pen Saves Your Life
By Melissa Rodríguez
I'm feeling sexual today
My legs craving for a touch,
and my lips looking for a kiss that would
leave me burning.
I'm tempted to grab my phone and send a
text
Sure that, if I want to, I'll find a kind man
who's willing to caress my body.
But something inside me stops me before I
press send
It's an intuitive feeling that's telling me to go
inward,
to lean into my passion.
And what a difficult thing to do
Used as I am to give away my energy to
others
So instead of looking for a pair of hands to
hold my body
I take my pen and let my arousal transform
into poems
Excitement pouring through my body while
my fingers hold the pen tightly as if it was a
man.
What a wonderful feeling
Being a woman I grew up with the idea that
my fire was meant to feed others
Fuck others...
Sitting here, with my notebook between my
legs
I feel whole for the first time
Standing in my own fire
Honoring my passion
Enjoying my femininity
Understanding that the next man who comes
will be lucky to try my fire. Mine and only.
Realizing that the power of my passion can
light up worlds. Light up galaxies
And that there's nothing more exciting than
myself.
So next time I let a man's hands hold me
I will be more than just a body
I will be sacred.
'Cause I don't need a man to fuck me
When I can make love to myself.
Melissa Rodríguez is a Mexican woman who has always found writing powerful and nourishing. She has a degree in communication science, and works as an Editor’s Assistant in a Mexican optometric magazine. Her journey begins where most magic is born: at a breaking point. That's when she started writing poetry, as an attempt to put her experiences into words, and as a healing tool. Interested in healing, Reiki work, and poetry, her goal is to touch other people's hearts with her poems. You can find her on Instagram under: @dancingwithmy.demons.